Once a Wife, Always a Mother

Wendy Thompson

I was a wife
                              Who couldn’t cook

I was a mother
                              Who couldn’t swim

I was a wife
                              Who couldn’t fight

I was a mother
                              Who couldn’t look ___ in the eye

I was a wife
                              Who paid all the bills

I was a mother
                              Who couldn’t sleep through the night

I was a wife
                              Who acted like a man

I was a mother
                              Who couldn’t appreciate any man

I was a wife
                              Who was the hammer

I was a mother
                              Who was the captain and the ship

I was a wife
                              Who fucked so many men prior to getting married she lost count (I told him two)

I was a mother
                              Who was an ocean full of love

I was a wife
                              Who married a foreigner from 6.4627° N, 3.3997° E

I was a mother
                              Who lost her shape and looked like a front-facing little letter b

I was a wife
                              Who never had an orgasm before the age of 40

I was a mother
                              Who screamed at her children like they were crazy mother  
                              fuckers wanting to fight at a BART station bus stop after 12 AM

I was a wife
                                                  Until

I was the victim’s mother

I was the petitioner

I was a person

I was a human

I was an animal

I was an object in the shape of a daughter’s wound at the edge of the world

I was a piece of non-biodegradable plastic in the middle of an albatross’s gut floating clean across the ocean

I was a broken thing to be used and discarded behind an apartment building dumpster (they think it was 2C that threw it away because they were always leaving trash out)

I was a cuss word thrown to the wind after church

I was a dating app profile

I was a limb

I was an orifice

I was someone else’s plaything

I was a middle-age man’s middle-age fuck buddy

I was alone

I am a mother

一度是妻子,永远是母亲

Xiaoyan Fu

我曾是妻子
                              不会做饭的妻子

我曾是母亲
                              不会游泳的母亲

我曾是妻子
                              不会吵架的妻子

我曾是母亲
                              不会正视______的眼睛的母亲

我曾是妻子
                              支付所有账单的妻子

我曾是母亲
                              睡不了整觉的母亲

我曾是妻子
                              表现得像个男人

我曾是母亲
                              无法欣赏任何男人

我曾是妻子
                              扮演锤子的角色


我曾是母亲
                              既当船长又当船

我曾是妻子
                              在婚前睡过记不清多少个男人(我跟他说的是两个)

我曾是母亲
                              心中的爱能填满大海

我曾是妻子
                              与来自北纬6.4627度,东经3.3997度的外国人结了婚

我曾是母亲
                              身材走样,活像朝外的小写字母b

我曾是妻子
                              在四十岁以前没有体验过性高潮

我曾是母亲
                              对着她的孩子大喊大叫,仿佛他们是半夜想在BART车站[1]打架的混蛋

我曾是妻子
                                              直到

我曾是受害者的母亲

我曾是上诉请求离婚者

我曾是个人

我曾是人类

我曾是动物

我曾是一个世界边缘的物体,形状和女儿的伤口一样

我曾是一块不可降解的塑料,在信天翁的肚子里漂洋过海

我曾是一件用完坏掉的东西,被扔在幢公寓楼的垃圾桶后面(他们认为是2C的住客扔的,因为那家人总是不好好扔垃圾)

我曾是一句脏话,做完礼拜后被人丢在风里

我曾是约会软件上的一页个人简介

我曾是一根肢体

我曾是身体上的一个孔

我曾是别人的玩物

我曾是一个中年男人的中年炮友

我曾孤身一人

我是一个母亲

 


 


[1]译者注:BARTBay Area Rapid Transit(湾区捷运)的缩写,是美国旧金山地区的城际交通系统。

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